Friday, July 8, 2011

Friday, July 1, 2011

Suitable For Public Consumption

Popularity and public acceptance have never been, nor will they ever be, a valid or legitimate determinant or signifier of quality.
But that detrimental misconception permeates our society.
As Sturgeon’s Law eruditely states: 90% of anything is crap. Hollywood and Big Publishing produces just as much crap as independent channels. And yet, the common, conventional assumption says that whatever is produced by the taste maker/ Gatekeeper machine of Hollywood and Big Publishing and Big Music is somehow innately more credible, more worthy of acceptance than indie productions. Actually, being made or sponsored by Hollywood or Big Publishing is no guarantee that the material is actually any good or deserving of attention and adulation.
I could make an impolite (but true) joke about the Twilight book/ movie series here… but I won’t.
In our society, the value and significance of art is misguidedly gauged and defined according to a criteria of commercial success rather than merit.
With such a mentality, a thing is good not because it is genuinely good by any standard, but merely because it sells and is “profitable”.
My books may (or may not?) be within the remaining 10%, but they will never achieve mainstream recognition, respect and appreciation as long as our society operates under that delusion. Self-published, non-agented books like mine will never be nominated for literary awards, because it would never even be considered. Never be on the best seller list.
But given what qualifies for best seller, I’d be insulted and dismayed if any of my books appeared on that list.
Any award framework that only includes material from conventional or official channels is by nature invalid and illegitimate.
Fellow media commentator Del Marbrook insightfully considers the issue in a recent blog post .

Although that entire post is worth reading, here are some of the more salient points offered:
It’s fair to ask, I think, whether our conventional media are providing us with the very best we’re creating amongst us or with a highly redacted limited edition that caters to a plethora of special interests. It’s fair to ask whether our media are corporate propagandists intent on limiting our vision and the means needed to realize any vision.
They reflect a regressive win-lose society that regards its every venture as a race to commercial success as if that were the only kind of success worth considering. Such a society, ensnared as it is in its commercial obsessions, cannot live up to its own highest ideals.
…it’s always possible that works of considerable merit will fall between the cracks, sometimes finding no publisher, sometimes finding shoestring publishers, and more often falling to critical neglect. That said, it’s also true that works of great merit published by important presses are often neglected or damned with faint praise. Given these issues, the very nature of egalitarianism comes into question. For example, is it egalitarian to say a work of art succeeds because it’s popular and sells well? Or is it egalitarian to say none of that matters, what matters is that it has a chance to breathe and be heard and seen.
We’ve had the gumption but we’ve never had the wherewithal to take on the assumptions of our taste-makers. Now we do.

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Tell Me About Yourself

I am not fond of that interrogative statement. How could you ever answer it succinctly, yet sufficiently? This is a big reason why I hate job interviews.
"What is your book about?" is a derivative of that inquery.
I suck at promoting.
Seriously.
I especially suck at SELF promotion.
Seems wrong to me; rude and arrogant and indecent and crass.
The reason for that can be summarized thusly: I really do not like talking about myself.
Actually, as a slightly autistic introvert, I generally don’t much like talking.
Could be that is why I write so much, instead.
And talking about things I’ve done just feels like bragging, or “look at me” nonsense.
Which is totally not me, and, therefore, makes me very uncomfortable.
Even if I don’t mean to brag, and even if it doesn’t sound like bragging to whoever I’m talking to—it FEELS too much like bragging.
Even if the self-promotion is merely statement of fact.
So I don’t promote my own writing, my books.
I’d rather let my work speak for itself, or let someone speak on my behalf, instead of trying to talk my way through an explanation or description of my writing. The words, the process, the style, the inspiration and meaning of it all… don’t ask me about that stuff.
I suck at self promotion so much, that I believe I am quite likely to do the opposite of promotion in the process… indeed, talk myself out of a “sale”. Maybe it seems ironic, or paradoxical, but my literature stands a better chance, I think, if I don’t do the talking.
Also, I am not a fan of spoilers. I don’t want to ruin the story for you—either by clumsily trying to summarize, or by revealing anything. It is better if you go in fresh, open minded, untainted by any preconceived notions or expectations for what the book is “supposed to be”.
So I'd rather my books be judged on the merits of their awesomeness, not my feeble social skills. I prefer you to find out for yourself… by reading the book.
When was the last time you went into a story not knowing anything about it? Could this be your first?
If you really want to know about my books or writing style, I recommend and ask, please… read them.
And then we have something to talk about.
I will, however, say only this much about my short stories:
Most of them revolve around, or happen in the universe of, a geeky and slightly autistic lady named Cassie O’Brien. She is a dreamwalker, Artemis Eternal Wingman, student of The Prometheus Institute for exceptional minds, and agent in a secret society called Arcanum (which observes and records the accumulated knowledge and true history of humanity).

Sunday, June 26, 2011

One Door Closes: these are the last words

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I’m calling a posteriori my last book. Not just my last short story anthology or chap book, but also philosophical and media commentary and poetry.
The final book of any kind with material principally written by me.
Each of my writing projects has been an attempt at innovation; an exploration and experimentation in the form and structure of storytelling—narrative and expository. Not merely what I have never done before, but also what I’ve never seen anyone else do. Such as the summary compilations of interview content from Henriksen, Cook and Stover (which turned out rather brilliantly).
I’ve been writing for almost 20 years; non-fiction and fiction.
I’ve reached a point where it seems like a good time to stop writing. Move on to other creative endeavors, as yet to be determined or discovered. I’ve already dabbled in photography. I am now awaiting inspiration for whatever is next.
I still enjoy writing, and I haven’t gotten bored or disillusioned with the craft… but I hope to be inspired to experiment with new artistic ventures and venues.
However, I’d be willing and eager to contribute to someone else’s collection of short stories or articles, if I was invited to participate in the right project (at the right time).
Publishing and consulting on writing projects for someone who isn’t me is something I’d love to be involved in; like I did with But The Owl Knows: help bring out stories from other indie authors.

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Jessica Mae Stover: What the hell happened to art?

Through recombined excerpts from various interviews/videos, JSto explains the ethos of Artemis Eternal:
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I love movies so much. If we could make a film that was pure, for once. Finding a new way to produce, distribute and exhibit film.
When you’re breaking new ground, you can’t just be like, “Oh, it’s like this other thing”… no one’s ever done it.
What makes me sort of a different presence here is: Man, what the hell happened to art?!
So much press was like, “why don’t we know about this project?”.
Artemis Eternal: The film, to me, is a story that is about the limitations that society puts on the individual, what’s your breaking point and how do you react to that.
Which is kinda meta, given what we’re doing with the project... which is very indie.
I sort of see it as a renaissance, we’re hoping for in filmmaking.
It’s a way of life, it’s a philosophy.
Maybe it’s counter to your philosophy—as it is to mine-- to want to sell people things they don’t need, that will end up in land fills.
Maybe you would actually like to make money off of creating art—which is your job. Maybe you don’t want to be in the advertising business.
When you’re an artist, you don’t want to deal with business.
The business nuances are incredibly difficult.
You need to understand a defunct system to make it work, and that took me a lot of research. If you’re not willing to do that, I say you’re not ready.
The overall project is a cross platform film project. The way we’re funding the film: instead of going to studios-- who don’t make original films anymore, specifically not original sci-fi/fantasy—you just don’t see that very often, if at all-- we went straight to the audience. It is the first ever community funded film.
More people doing less, contributing small amounts of money.
What we’re really talking about is a lifestyle: look at what you do have over what you don’t.
We went straight to our audience—who we dub Wingmen, we call the contributors WINGMEN. Inviting new people to join the community, then we’ll cut it off and push into production. We have this great community of people, and we’re making kick-ass art. We’re essentially creating new content with them.
It really is a community project, and people really are pulling their weight, ‘cause I’m one person. They’re always helping us kind of spread the word, and share the story, and connect with press.
It’s great when the audience has your back, it feels like you can do anything. I have a very romantic point of view. Beyond building the world of the film, I have to build, like, the infrastructure around how we’re making it.
The great thing about good sci-fi/ fantasy is that is it’s philosophy, and it’s basically a metaphor for what really happening. It’s a good way to question.
I just try to create good stories and hope they resonate.

There are a lot of people who would be into what we’re doing, but how do you reach them without a marketing budget?
When you’re working at a professional level, but you don’t have a budget… you’re screwed.
You can make the most brilliant thing in the world. And that “if you build it, they will come” thing isn’t true. That’s because you need a marketing budget. Everything is propaganda.
There is so much noise, it actually costs more to cut through the muddy waters and get your message out there.
Short films, there’s not really a market for them; you don’t really make money off of it.
So it’s like social philanthropy.
I kind of started where everyone is trying to get. Like, this doesn’t work for me. I don’t want to work this way. You can’t make films this way.
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I wanted to start a project that didn’t have any studio or advertising involvement, and to see if, like, it was really possible to create something that was kick-ass and beautiful, that could be prestigious, and also be commercial.
Hollywood doesn’t make movies anymore, they make licensing platforms.
Once I found out how that system works, the studio system, I was like, “ok, do I want to work like that or no?”—NO. OK, what do I do now?
And I think it’s possible, but I basically feel like there’s a huge status quo going on, and it’s not going to be changing. I guess my hope would be, as we’re talking about a lot of these topics, to kind of be thinking outside of the box a little more, and not just accept the fact that that we have to be talking about studios and advertising.
Storytelling fills a basic human need.
More people go to the movies than go to church. You’re consuming story, consuming media… it should mean something.
And if it’s something as sacred and important to us as that, then why is it ok to watch ten commercials before a movie when you’ve paid for a ticket?
Why does it have to come from the studios? And why does it have to involve advertising?
I really don’t see why people aren’t focusing more on that [movie-going, cinema] experience.
Improving things you’ll never be able to duplicate, like theater experience.
As professionals, and as audience members, start really thinking about what storytelling and content means, what it means to us socially.
I just think there is a larger philosophy at play here, and I would urge you all not to take all the studio and advertising stuff at surface level.
As an artist, when I go to a site like Massify, when you do that, you’re setting yourself up as another Gatekeeper. Which is not what I wanted to do at all.
I, personally, would not want to be working through a gatekeeper, and I wouldn’t want to be a gatekeeper. I want to be working directly with my fans. I want to do things my way, and I don’t want to be limited.
I want to, with it, create a way that is different, that will allow other people to get their stuff made, if they’re working at a quality level. Giving film makers who have earned it to control the project more, and to get things done.
It’s not going to change the way a major studio makes films, but it will provide another avenue.
A non-zero sum philosophy of film making—which is completely opposite of how anything is done in the film industry. Someone wins, someone loses—usually it’s us (the audience) ‘cause we’re still paying for them (bad movies).
I wanted to create a business model that—and a case study that not only would yield an awesome movie that people would love, and something high minded, and to also confront things like media consolidation, when you have six companies controlling everything you’re seeing. To the artist, what’s important is they do not get tied up in the system. There needs to be an opportunity to not do that.
Let’s get organized and get it done.
All we have to do is hit our fundraising mark, crew up, and we shoot…
You wanna come?
No Wimps.
http://www.artemiseternal.com

Tuesday, May 10, 2011

Rachael Cook: characters in my head

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Rachael summarizes her acting ethos in recombined interview excerpts...

I started doing print work here in Minnesota when I was young, like real young. Like 10 or 11 or so. I have no interest whatsoever in being a high-fashion model, nor is it possible. I went on this audition, when I was 15, for a short film that was shooting locally -- local writer, director, star, the whole bit.
And somehow I got the part. It was a lot of fun. It was called 26 Summer Street and it was based on a short story by William Carlos Williams. We shot it over two weekends, and it came out wonderfully. It's a beautiful little film. It was really a good experience! A manager from LA heard that I had done this and saw my picture. She called the print agency I was working for and said, "Bring this girl in, bring her parents, and we'll talk." So I went, and she asked me if I'd like to come out to LA. And I went over my winter break of school and I tried out for The Baby-Sitter's Club. Got that... not sure how. And I've been working ever since. Yes, I've been a very busy girl!
But acting just sort of happened and I found that I loved it. It was such a challenge.
I never thought I'd be here. My dad was a social worker and my mom sells cookware. They are so proud of me it's almost embarrassing! They're really supportive and wonderful. I wish I get to see them more. I especially miss my younger brother, Ben a lot. I miss being in a place where there isn't such an obvious presence of the film industry.
When I came into the business, things changed a lot, and my life was in a real state of flux. I didn't know where I fit. I wasn't sure if I'd make it. Even though I was working quite a bit, I didn't know this is what I was supposed to do [in life].
I never really believed it was permanent. But at the same time, it was all happening and really removed me from the life I had going in Minneapolis.
So I didn't know where I belonged. I was just working a great deal.
My job is getting a job. It's the only industry I can think of where that's the case. Now I'm not considered someone who's a draw, and that works against me. Mostly, I've made independent films that don't see the light of day.
It may not seem much, but as a professional actor, you seek out that one role that relates to your personality and maximizes your chances to expand your career. So, it's never, ever an ego thing - it's a survival thing. You work and you, hopefully, get roles that lead to better films. You're going to need a lot of luck. It's a lot of right place at right time. There's a lot of rejection... gotta expect that. Other than that, I guess the best advice I can give is not to have a lot of expectations, and just prepare yourself the best you can. Take classes in improv and scene study. Also, LA is a very weird place. I don't want to say "Trust No One," but I will say “Be careful." Good luck, and follow your dreams, but beware of putting all your self-worth in what you look like because that's not who you are. Sometimes you've got to stick up for what you believe in.
You know: Be yourself! If people don't like you, then don't hang out with them. Parents always say that, I know-but I swear it's true. I did not grow up getting told about how manipulated the images we see of women and girls out there are, and I think it's an absolute travesty that young women are seeing what the media is feeding them. It breaks my heart to be part of an industry and part of a machine that really pushes out these images and propagates these really terrible standards that are false. Nothing that you see is real, even if you look at what looks like a candid photo of someone, anything can be done. It is false advertising and false advertising is a crime so why isn't this a crime? I'm just up in arms about it.
I used to be overpoweringly shy, and I finally came out of my shell, but I'm still kind of quiet-- and I think it's fine to be shy. I always get keyed up worrying about things that don't need to be worried about. I'm a master of over-analyzing things that are completely insignificant, and I won't realize this till days later. I can be incredibly self-conscious and erratic when I'm not comfortable with somebody or a situation. Sometimes I say things that I can't believe came out of my mouth. Or I won't mean something and it will come out completely nonsensical.
It's kind of scary to think someone's watching me and knows what I'm doing all the time. The more famous I get, the more of that kind of weirdness is there.
I could see myself hanging out in college, taking some classes. I'd like that, I really would. But I keep finding scripts that I really want to do, and I think, if I don't do this, I know they're going to get this other person to do it, and I'll be so upset when I see it and they're good.
You'll be surprised how much work acting can be. Memorizing your lines, hitting your mark, dealing with stage fright, having people look at you - you have to decide if you want to be made a public spectacle.
I like acting now--I like it a lot. At times I wish my life were quieter, but I wouldn't trade it at the moment.
To unwind... I don't know. I'm not a very tense person. I'm not one of those actors who gets nuts when you put me in my trailer for half an hour with nothing to do.
I like to read. Don't get me wrong, I can party with the best of them, but for the most part, I'm a pretty laid-back person, I think. Yeah, I've been busy.
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Actors have like a hundred different ways of choosing which projects they want to do. But ... the ones I want are the ones where I can just read it, I can so clearly just see myself saying these lines. I read them on the page and I can hear my voice in my head and how I would say them. At that point, it's like, 'I have to do this. You might think that there is someone else you might want for this role, but you don't understand, because I'm going to do this.' I can just hear these characters in my head. The best thing about being able to do different parts is that it brings out different parts of you. To say that a character comes completely out of nowhere, to me, is false. Every character is a little piece, just blown up. That's what's great about taking on all kinds of roles.
I'm easy to work with, I'll be honest.
The film has to be strong in one of three categories. Either the character has to be someone I'm just dying to play, or else, if it's not that, the people involved.
I love working with great actors or directors or production people, even.
And the third would be the genre of the film.
I'm really open about what I do. You won't catch me taking my clothes off; I get cold easily. I have no problem with actors getting naked in movies, but taking my clothes off makes me uncomfortable. I'm very shy. I won't do nudity, and no body-doubling to make it look like it's me. My rule for movies and pictures is, if I can't sit at the premiere with my father next to me, I won't do it.
No, and I think I'll sort of see what comes up. I am not the sort of a person to say never, because you'll inevitably find yourself in a prison, where your mindset changes or the opportunity is too good to pass up. I want to try everything.
I think I'm a million different faces. I'm not ready to be put in a box. Variety is the key. That's all.
I think the most rewarding part is being able to create something... create a person. You know, we have to take these characters-- who, granted, have their separate personalities but, on a lot of levels, are pretty two-dimensional-- and make them into people with flaws, with insecurities. It sounds kinda weird, and I'm not going to get method on you or anything, but when you've been someone else and felt these things and gone through situations and scenes as this person -- who's in a lot of ways you and in some ways someone else -- you get to miss it when you don't get to be that person anymore. It's kinda like losing a friend.
Having it (being an actress) perceived as so much of what you are.
Before [people] even meet me, they know what I do.
I feel that I'm not what I do. I'm Rachael, and I just really, really like to act.
But I don't think it's who I am.
It's what I do and it makes me feel good. But sometimes you're going to have to go through a little embarrassment to get what you want. I'm doing it! It's a good thing! It's nice to live completely on your own terms.
I love what I do; I just want to diversify it. I want to put together a very diverse body of work, while still playing interesting characters. It's not going to be easy.
People who talk during movies drive me insane!
I don't know if the glass is half full or empty. It depends what kind of day you ask me on. But right now, it's very much half full. As far as my entire take on life, I'll have to get back to you on that one.
Seriously, I'd like to have someone ask me, "Are you happy?" Everyone assumes that I'm on top of the world right now... which is true, but sometimes I like to be asked.
By the way, the answer is yes.
Hope you guys like the movie.

Saturday, April 30, 2011

Lance Henriksen: Acting Like He Means It

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* recombined excerpts from various interviews tell a summary of Lance’s acting ethos in his own words*

The first thing that comes to mind is that, when I add up all the films, it’s an accumulation of moments.
Oh yeah, I have a lot of films coming out. I’ve been very busy and I can’t even remember them all. I did about 9 years of theatre-- New York, I did it up in Boston, I was in the Guthrie Theatre, Minnesota. I did a lot of little plays everywhere.
I love the concept that, if you’re not acting then you’re not an actor. I’d rather be an actor. So, I said, “Yes.” It really happened by accident. I have a lot of stories. I always try to do good work.
I’ve just been doing all kinds of work. If you check me out on IMDb, they don’t even have them all listed on there yet. It would be easy to say yes, but let me just say this: the only thing I respond to and respect most is labor.
Otherwise, I wouldn’t have a career right now and I would have faded out.
If they asked me to do a puppet show, I would try.
It was a wonderful creative process all the way around on that film, but that’s what my whole world is, because I’m desperate to take chances. I like to have an adventure with my portrayals. I’m not just in it for the salary.
Everybody seems to think films are easy to do and they really aren’t.
Again, for a young actor to be on those sets, to see the effort going into it and being a part of that whole process, it’s a wonderful thing to have happened in your life.
I think children are the only heaven I'll ever know when you really get down to it - my children are the only heaven I'll ever know. They're incredible to watch and they are the best of what we are.
When I was a kid, I would run away from home a lot, and I would go to the movies.
When I say ‘ran away’, I mean I wouldn’t ever go to school; I hated school.
I think that’s why school was so boring to me. Because they would talk about stuff that I thought I would never use. I had no interest at all and would just stare out the window all day. There’s no single way to do anything. School doesn’t necessarily produce functioning and active people.

And when I was seeing them (movies) as a kid I did detect the falseness of a lot of it, and I got an early image that if I told the truth I could do it better, and when great actors came along and some of these movies started changing into real character studies and people telling the truth about their lives with their performances I really knew there was a place for me.
Listen, I have a lot of flaws as a human being. Everybody has a certain amount of character defects-- one of the reasons I got into this industry in the first place was because really, in a lot of ways, it was the only place I could go. I've been a painter and an artist-- I love the arts and all I know is working from my intuition and that's where I'm at and why the role of Frank Black was so good for me-- it was a role that required lot of restraint and observation. Those are things that are natural to me anyway. And only because that's the truth - I'm telling the truth.
I think that drove me into the arts, I really do. That really did it. The only other thing that made me survive, as a human being, was getting into the arts. I was surrounded by people that were very bright and they invited you in. They were gracious. So, it gave me a great education.
Some movies you agree to do because you are not working and they ask you if you want to come to the Philippines. So, you say, “Alright. Yeah, why not,” and then you do the best that you can. You’re really just basically spending your time making chicken salad out of chicken shit, you know?
Again, for a street kid from New York with a third grade education – to be surrounded by all of this talent over the years has really been a gift for me.
My gratitude for that is always there and it’s the reason I take it serious and do the best work I can no matter what movie I’m in.
I don’t care if the budget costs fifty bucks; I’m still going to put the effort into it. I’m one of these people who never leaves a set. I’m always on set and watching what’s going on. Ever since I started I don’t like to go to the trailer and cool my heels I really want to be on the set. Even on Millennium I was that way. In terms of movies, one of the things that happens is that the more you’re there the more you pick up on things, and I don’t like to walk away from that.
But I feel pretty invincible in the sense that if I take a job on I'm going try to do something very special with it no matter what the limitations; and I’ve said it before and I really mean it, I don't do low budget acting. If I take a job on and the material offers any route that offers any kind of quality, I'll go for that route. It's like water seeking its own level, you know what I mean? There’s no way I’m going to get on there to humiliate or embarrass myself. I’m not responsible for any movie that I do. I mean, I’m really not. I’m responsible for my work, but not for the thing as a whole, and we all have to work.
Yes, but you know what though? Again, this is the alimony thing I was talking about earlier. Certain movies they say, “We’re going to pay you this amount of money. You should come get involved.”
I immediately start thinking, “Okay, alimony film.” They turned out to be really bad sequels, sub-par. You would hit the video store shelves and there’s my name in this horrible-ass movie. I don’t want to name the film, but what a complete piece of shit. It happens, you know. I’m not one of those guys who plans his career; I just sort of take what is offered.
When you get into a budget like that and these people are risking their money, even in an alimony film, as far as I’m concerned, you’ve really got to give it your all.
I know I don’t hold back. I don’t mock them or walk through it.
I can’t do that; morally, I just can’t do it. That’s been my career all over the place. I’m playing everything you can imagine and to me that’s the fun of it all. If I stopped enjoying it, I would quit entirely and just make pottery.
It’s timing. Everything is timing. You can almost attune it to meeting a chick. You meet her at the wrong time, nothing is going to happen, but meet her at the right time…

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I have a certain limit and I have always thought that somehow that was OK, that was all right to be an actor and have those limits and know them.
I’ve been lucky enough to work with people who know what acting is all about. What part of it is about is getting stimulated and have a reaction to it all. I try to get that out of anybody I’m working with, especially when you’re working on a budget that’s not very large. I think to myself that I’ve done enough of these movies to know that we are not going to be able to compete with a hundred million dollar movie. So, what are we going to do instead? Let’s use our imaginations and turn this film into something. Even a tiny, simple scene-– let’s turn it into something. That’s always my goal.
I’m always willing. The thing is, I’m willing for the adventure and if it’s a worthy adventure, I’ll go. Remember, I got these scripts ahead of time so I knew what they were. As soon as I know what I’m going for, if there’s something to do and I think it’s worth doing, I’ll do it. Sure, why not?
I’m not one of those guys who sits around trying to design a career: my career speaks for itself already! It’s some mishaps, it’s some great stuff: I don’t mean me, but the movies I’ve been in. Some have been extraordinarily good and some have been mishaps and others have been fine. I love working though, I really do. I love playing bad guys, but good guys that have a good thing going on, I like that too.
I think that no bad guy thinks of himself as a bad guy, and what they do is not bad all the time. I’m usually playing good guys that everybody thinks are bad but actually turn to be good guys.
But I don't only want to do the Hollywood ‘bad guys' or ‘good guys', it's about playing characters that have a full range of emotions.
It's a piece of entertainment where you investigate these types of characters and make audiences believe it, just what's going on and lead them down unusual paths.
I find a lot of inspiration in acting just comes in a flash and then if you pursue that inspiration you expand it and you see how it affects on the whole world.
We're not a usual creature, humans.
What I try and do with those roles is build a real dense character that has a life to him. I don't know if the movie worked, but the character really worked!
Anyway, it was putting together pieces of a character and I love that. Believe me, I love acting-- otherwise I wouldn't do it, I'd stop.
It was one of those times, again, where I was not working and when you say ‘yes’ to some things-– things can happen that will benefit your career. It challenged me and I like challenges.
Nothing you do in this business happens overnight. Sometimes it takes a couple of years, so I’m very patient. I don’t get lazy and I do the work now, knowing that down the road, something will happen with it.
I live with the kind of attitude of gratitude, believe me, that's how my life really wants to be and to be accepted in the industry like I have been, it's been wonderful, I have nothing to complain about at all!
So anyway, that's my struggle. That's not everybody's struggle.
I came into this business not because they invited me, but because they couldn't stop me.

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